I've gone back to wordpress. Right now, I'll maintain my Xanga… but after working with both websites, I must say I do prefer the simple elegance of wordpress. There's no ads on wordpress. Anyone can post a comment on wordpress – unlike Xanga, where you have to register. Xanga might be better for networking, but I don't really have enough friends that have Xanga to make it worthwhile.
Today has so far been a bad day. I don't feel like doing anything at all. I have absolutely no will to do any kind of work. Though I know I'd feel better if I went for a run or a skate or even if I cleaned my room.
I feel like I'm not going anywhere. The news is always depressing.. today I flicked through CNN and FOX.. war in Iraq is still a headline, it's not getting better, North Korea is about to test a long-range missile capable of reaching the United States, Iran is still talking about nuclear weapons, Houston is flooded…
I feel like my career isn't going anywhere. What am I talking about, I'm 19 years old. There's this awful pressure for me to get a job related to my career, and it's coming from all sides. My parents, my friends… it's not my fault the Buffalo job market sucks. I've decided that I'm definately not living in Buffalo once I get out of college. Apparently if I work somewhere where there's a demand for engineers, I could make something to three times the amount I'd make in Western New York. Of course I've found that money is not nearly everything. Not even close. It's people. I wonder if I'm lucky that I've figured this out at such a young age.
I guess I've figured out a lot of things at a relatively young age. I never had friends throughout grade school or highschool outside a select few people. I'm not saying I've never done anything stupid. I'm just saying that I see things differently from most people. I see something and I think about it. I try not to make impulsive decisions, or automatically side with the popular opinion or jump on the bandwagon. I'm independent, I'm my own person… and because of that, I'll never fit in.
